struggling at work

i know everyone who is employed by someone else will find themselves frustrated at one point or another. put another way, everywhere you go, there's bound to be an idiot that you have to tolerate, or at least someone making less-than-desirable decisions (that you like well enough) that you need to tolerate. how do we all make it through the day? do other people just have more enjoyable jobs that the trivialities seem less important?

i'm struggling right now with the plethora of poorly made decisions surrounding me at work and wondering how to cope. they run the gamut of big decisions to little decisions, higher ups and lowly nobodies. it's kinda giving me a headache.

i'd love to look for a new job, but where? sure, on paper i'm an adult now (married, home owner, parent, oh my!), but i feel as little as ever, wondering what i'll be when i grow up. is it possible to find a job that i enjoy doing, employing one of my enjoyable skills, that earns enough to pay the bills that linger in my mind, mocking my life-long goal of being a stay-at-home mom? or do i just find one that i can tolerate for now, to keep the bills at bay? i know i'm not living up to my potential professionally, but is that just a pipe dream anyways? sure it's nice to have savings, not need to "cut back" with the recession upon us. . . but is it worth it?

or am i taxing my mental well-being for the sake of taxing? do i need to just suck it up and put these thoughts out of my mind? or just the "stay at home" thoughts and pursue the "living up to my potential" thoughts? a combination of the two would be ideal, but then again, i think having a more challenging, worth-while job would help me get over going to work every morning. i wish i knew where to start. i need some fairy godmother-type person to wave her wand and make my path clear, since i am excellent at following directions (most days, at least). it doesn't have to be step by step, just a general direction would do. something to focus on, something to aim for, something beyond earning a paycheck.

there's gotta be something out there.