bummed

on monday i was bummed to discover that i can no longer do sit ups as part of my morning work out. it seems my abdominal muscles have split and it's really not safe any more. and by the way, super creepy to see your stomach go from rounded to pointy. . . oh well. i've been focusing on the elliptical since then, on which i can focus on cardio and posture, but get baby's heart moving too, and thinking about coming out!

yesterday i was bummed to have adam insist that i cannot have my annual mcrib sandwich. that famed mcdonald's sandwich available for a brief time each year is no longer an option while i am carrying and/or breastfeeding adam's child. argh! i only have one a year, but this year will have to be sacrificed. i guess i can understand, but i will never fully appreciate adam's dislike and distrust of the poor little pressed-pork sandwich. oh well.



today i'm bummed to find myself at work on my due date. i'm far from miserable, just eager to meet this little one. and eager to not have to get up early to go to work for a while. but mostly eager to meet the little one and get started on that chapter in our lives. my intuition insists that the baby will arrive any day now, but my brain is starting to say "brace for the worst" which could mean up to 2 more weeks of waiting and/or being induced. i'm not sure i could handle 2 more weeks of work, since i am so mentally and practically prepared for being out. the prospect of being induced intimidates me, both in the unnatural aspect of it and the likelihood of more intense contractions and increased possibility of needing an epidural or (gulp) further interventions. if only the baby would just arrive already. . . the suspense is killing me.