final stretch

so we're in the final stretch and i have to admit, i'm a bit anxious. like i told kate over the weekend: its like waiting to go get a new puppy, but instead of saying, "ok, let's go to the store now," i have to wait for the puppy to be brought to me AND i have to work for it. sure, it's a bad analogy, but it's the best my brain can come up with right now.

friday was a weird day for the process because i think my uterus was flexing on and off. nothing i think were contractions, but definitely new sensations than what i've experienced to date. then sunday at 5am, i woke up to what i think was a real contraction (extremely intense flex with a slight pang), but nothing else since. it's been so quiet that adam and i aren't ruling out the possibility of imagining it. . . i was asleep after all.

selfishly, i was hoping to not have to come to work today, but alas, here i am. i'm just so mentally prepared for baby (and for not being at work) that it's hard to just focus on the day. adam and i had to admit to ourselves out loud that we can't live out the next few days (gulp, weeks?) in an awkward limbo. we have to keep doing things (like stuff around the house, making plans with people) until baby says otherwise, or else go completely stir crazy. it's almost like cabin fever in winter: if you get outside and embrace the winter (and get some sun on your face), it makes getting through it easier. of course part of me would love to just sit on the couch until the baby arrives, but reality says i'll get bored really quick. plus, i think if i stay busy (and moving around), baby will be inspired to join us on the outside.

so come on, baby! come join us. anybody who is anybody is out here. . . it's the place to be!